Y Tuesday, July 7, 2009Y
3:13 AM
Talked. Don't talk. Talked. Don't talk.Enough. Lets just follow with the flow. :D
First thing first.
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY IBU!!!!
May Allah bless you with the strenght to look after
your 4 sturborn yet loving kiddies.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!
Despite arguing with you everyday, you're still the best.
When you nag, I want you to stop yet when you stop,
I want you to nag. My life darkens not seeing, talking to you.
I irritates you alot, I really do. But you know deep down there,
I care, I love, I adore you.
There's no me if there's no you.
You embraced me tightly making sure I won't fall.
You are my everything.
Guilt haunts me whenever I'm wrong.
But you shoo all that away. Telling me none is perfect.
You love me for who I am not what I am.
You pampered me with everything.
I Love You So Much.
Hopefully one day I'll have the courage to tell you this.
From your ONE and ONLY daughter, Dina Suziana Zainudin.
Till death apart us, Ibu.
I don't know why but I'm being emotional, and the next one
is for Nenek.
Nenek, you're gone before I knew it.
I miss your touch, your kiss and your love.
You never once hurt me.
You said you wanna see me in Secondary School uniform
but I'm sorry that I didn't fulfill your last wish.
I can't get over it.
Everytime I'm back from school, you're always there waiting for me.
I have to let everything go now.
I want you to come back, nenek. Can you please?
I promise to be a good girl.
The last time I kissed you, you didn't kiss me back.
You just lay down there not moving.
I imagine that you will smile at me for the last time.
But your eyes were close. You look happy.
And I know you are. At least you don't have to suffer anymore.
Allah love you more and therefore take you away from me.
But why?
I regretted for not be a good girl.
You never hated me.
When you're gone, I'm lost.
Everytime I hope that you will come to my dream
and make me smile.
I love you, Nenek. You are my second mother.
I'm desperate to see you smiling at me.
All of us miss you Nenek, especially Atok.
He talks about you every single time
and I love hearing it all.
Sometimes, I can see his eyes wet with tears.
He misses you so so so much.
But we all know we got no right in stoping you from going.
Allah knows best. There's a reason behind everything.
Sadly, until now, I still don't know the reason why.
From your Granddaughter who miss you so much,
Dina Suziana Zainudin.
May you rest in peace, Nenek. Al-fatihah.
The 2 women up there are my everything.
Then comes the rest of my families.
I feel better after typing all these.
Those who read this post, you guys may think its rubbish.
But I'm telling you this. I thought so before it all happened.
The feeling of losing someone you love can cause a great
impact in your life. Trust me. I know it all.
Now, go appreciate what you have, because
before you realise it, it's been taken away from you.
You won't realise it before it happen but you will soon.
Don't be like me, I regretted the rest of my life.
Till here, Dina Suziana Zainudin.
Miss her Nenek.